...compared to the entire world

Like all the past four years of school, I look back and every one of them seemed to go by so quickly. Sorry if that sounded cliche. And I wish I could have done better on this and that.

That's the problem with time. One has to closely and carefully manipulate it to satisfy themselves. And just that seems to be hard enough.

Recently, mixes of emotions and feelings hit me with so much force, it's scientifically proven that was has happened to me can hurt as much as a physical blow to the head. It's like I could be ripped into pieces and it would be better than what happened the past week.

There was nothing there with me to take me out my confusion and then some. I don't know who can sucessfully reach my words with a correct interpretation. But here I go:

I live in a place where human beings have practically taken over the world. And that's the last of it. I don't want to be called that. I just want to be homo sapien. Just biologically part of the race. Come to think of it, those two phrases sounds so different. HOMO SAPIEN: directly translated into English as man wise wise; a species. HUMAN BEING: what a homo sapien has become; the creatures who tries to define the world.

And that means they made a definition for HOMO SAPIEN: man wise wise. Two wises. Because we, even naturally, have strong faith that we are smarter. Just think about that; I know I have. I don't know what to think after that.

I could say I have pride into finding my own answer to that question.

But I could also say I could be a human being and live a more average life. But I appreciate this life more.

But I could say this makes me a monster. I just don't want to be...

I'm not going to say any further than that. I'll let you figure the rest on your own. And if can actually predict my next unwritten chapter, I love you. (Yes, that sounds weird)

I'm livin' in this world. And I have to live in it. Hm. 7:12 p.m.