I've finally got it. I've finally stopped:
Life doesn't matter. It's just happening. There isn't really much to that. I'm gonna try to stop chasin' it.
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I had to go to a therapist this morning. She talked to my mother after my turn.
Well this is who I am. I couldn't be defined...yet. My vocabulary... my facial expressions... my tone... my, to quote the therapist, "strange fashion for a teenager"... it's definitely true; I'm different.
I know it's gonna happen. I'm the inevitable. Whatever's gonna happen can and might even will be the inevitable. Kinda like how mathematics or science was discovered. Some day, I'll be found out- not that I want to.
But I've defied what society thinks. I've defied what became the accepted "truth". Think about it, and 2+2 can be "five". And 10x10 can be "fifty-seven". But it isn't. 2+2 is "four". 10x10 is "one hundred". Some day, I might even start something new.
I'm not certain if I'm ready for that though. I'm not certain if I "gotta let it go". I probably don't.
Life doesn't to matter; it just happens. I could be dead by now, and I'm not grateful that I'm not. I didn't achieve anything yet. Today, I'm about to try something. Personally, I see it as crazy.
Forget it. I'm not gonna say anymore now. I'm not the person to add words to vocabulary. And this vocabulary can hardly say anything for me. Just try figure me out. Or if you don't want to, if you don't dare, don't.
I loved chasin' life. But some day it's gonna stop running. I'm still probably not gonna catch up... Hm.
Life doesn't matter. It's just happening. There isn't really much to that. I'm gonna try to stop chasin' it.
---
I had to go to a therapist this morning. She talked to my mother after my turn.
Well this is who I am. I couldn't be defined...yet. My vocabulary... my facial expressions... my tone... my, to quote the therapist, "strange fashion for a teenager"... it's definitely true; I'm different.
I know it's gonna happen. I'm the inevitable. Whatever's gonna happen can and might even will be the inevitable. Kinda like how mathematics or science was discovered. Some day, I'll be found out- not that I want to.
But I've defied what society thinks. I've defied what became the accepted "truth". Think about it, and 2+2 can be "five". And 10x10 can be "fifty-seven". But it isn't. 2+2 is "four". 10x10 is "one hundred". Some day, I might even start something new.
I'm not certain if I'm ready for that though. I'm not certain if I "gotta let it go". I probably don't.
Life doesn't to matter; it just happens. I could be dead by now, and I'm not grateful that I'm not. I didn't achieve anything yet. Today, I'm about to try something. Personally, I see it as crazy.
Forget it. I'm not gonna say anymore now. I'm not the person to add words to vocabulary. And this vocabulary can hardly say anything for me. Just try figure me out. Or if you don't want to, if you don't dare, don't.
I loved chasin' life. But some day it's gonna stop running. I'm still probably not gonna catch up... Hm.
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