I'm in the state of being overwhelmed by thoughts again. I'm in the state of cofusion. Because I keep telling me things are going to be okay and they they're probably not. Because now everything I do is considered either stupid or selfish. Because I keep going back and forth, back and forth.

And as I slowly crawl like a weak man out of this deeper hole I dug for myself, a hole I didn't know I was digging, a hole I remember almost wanting to dig, be my witness as I get out. And back to when I didn't jump in.

Readers, be my witness(es). And you'll see what I'm capable of.
That will be all I will give.